You've gotta swim

Its strange how much song lyrics can strike your heart and pinpoint the hurts, and struggles. This song has done that for me. Even in this song that probably wasn't intended for you to see God in. I see him in most of these lyrics. 

by Jacks Mannequin "swim"

You've gotta swim..

Swim for your life

Swim for the music that saves you

When you're not so sure you'll survive

You gotta swim

And swim when it hurts

The whole world is watching you haven't come this far to fall off the earth

The currents will pull you away from your love

Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the dawn

Memories like bullets they fired at me from a gun

A crack in the armor

I swim to brighter days

Despite the absence of sun

Choking on salt water

I'm not giving in

 swim

You gotta swim

Through nights that won't end

Swim for your families

Your lovers your sisters

And brothers and friends

Yeah you've gotta swim

Through wars without cause

Swim for the lost politicians

Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us

Away from our love

Just keep your head above

You gotta swim

Swim in the dark

There's no shame in drifting

Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark

Yeah you've gotta swim

Don't let yourself sink

Just find the horizon

I promise you it's not as far as you think

The currents will drag us away from our love

Just keep your head above

Just keep your head above

Swim

Nothing makes sense without you. It's like waking up in the dark.

ahhh.....it has been a while since I've posted a blog onto here. hmmm... where to start?
Life has been pretty good. had a fantastic visit to New Mexico(I will say this truthfully...the longer time I spend with Brandon the harder time I have leaving)
I would just like to brag about him(hope you don't mind B) but he is a phenomenal photographer.
 really he is.
 He is doing an art show soon and has printed out a bunch of his picture from Africa and is stretching them himself. (impressive? yup. its pretty dang tough.... he showed me how to do it! )
 but he also has a website.
 with all of his fantastic photos.
 really every single one of them I want(good thing I have the hook up with the photographer=))
haha but no they are great.
take a gander at his website and look through his pictures, your heart will melt when you see them. mine does every time!
 http://brandonstone.me/

on another note.
 Ive been trying to be more spontaneousness.
 A result of that is another ear piercing, staying up late with my roommates and doing things that are very fun, and well you just need to know what Im talking about to understand. but I'm not about to tell you on my blog. (girls...you know what I'm talking about! ), and cutting off my hair at midnight.
 ahhh. here are some pictures.
and why yes I had my roommate cut it off.... thank you gretta!!!

before....

after.

how it looks now!

 (this yes indeed was taken in a coffee shop...come on. the internet at my house isn't working. so I bum off of coffee shops.) 

Despite a few moments of freaking out(ie Gretta starting cutting, I ran my fingers through and started laughing really hard...I tend to do that when I freak out a bit. and kept saying its a nubbin in a pony tail! and staring at the ground thinking "ooh my gosh. there is all the hair that was on my head". ) Kaley and Gretta just kinda stared while I was just saying random stuff. Kaley just kept saying "Christian its so cute. its so cute. I love it!" and so did gretta. Thanks for the moral support in that brief moment of panic.

But I love it.

It will grow back, its hair and it does that.  

But so far so good. whew. 

Pros to short hair:

It takes 10 minutes to blow dry.

I don't use as much conditioner

It wont make a nice little dread in the back of my head

It doesn't get annoying when it gets everywhere like my long hair used to.

Cons to short hair:

Its not long.

So far so good. I like it, 

would like to also brag about another sweet girl I did summer staff with. Her name is Carrie, and would like to say is easily one of the coolest people I know. ps you make one heck of a good cup of coffee.(oh what I Would to do be sitting on the rocking chairs in from of the gold cup chatting about life drinking chai. oh so great) 

She has a quick whit, can make anyone laugh , and has such a big heart, and her love for people its contagious. 

Carrie my dear. I seriously hope we intern together. you are fantastic. and super sad I cannot have coffee with you on a regular basis. check out her sweet blog! 

http://morecarrieplease.blogspot.com/

ahhhhh off to do homework, then class. and hopefully out hot water heater will be fixed today because ice cold showers make my hear hurt. yes I washed my hair in the bathtub today BECAUSE we have 0. I mean 0 hot water. it was so cold the back of my head hurt. what?! why does that happen? 

Hope today is great, and you hum this little number.

 http://www.jjheller.com/home.asp

If you were a boat my darling a boat my darling, I'd be the wind at your back.

This Fantastic album has been on replay for about 2 days now. There are a few songs that I have just fallen in love with. One is called the boat song. I was reading reviews about the album just to see what people said about it and I love this:
"Boat Song" is another beautiful acoustic love song about how she and her husband complete each other, as she sings, "If you were a boat… I'd be the wind at your back."
And its true, its a fantastic love song. One of those songs that makes your heart pitter-patter when you hear it. 
But really JJ Heller is an amazing artist.  and If I am being honest I have been looking at pictures of her hair, because I am thinking of chopping mine off like hers. ( if I have enough guts to do it....)

Grace means your holding me too.

I am sitting at our dining room table with stacks of paper every where around me
(yes, its time to pick classes for next semester, and all that fun stuff)
and I just don't have much ambition to look anymore. So instead I am going to blog. its always fun.

Today I made a fire in our fire place. (it took me a few tries but I did it! ) now I am trying to sit as close to it as possible, or however far my laptop cord will let me go.

I have been eyeballing these adorable rings. And this.

I am wear this a fantastic necklace from Africa.(Thanks B. I love it. )

Cannot Believe how grown up these sweet girls are.
Hales, you look Phenomenal. 

Haley and I
 2 years ago?

I am hoping for snow.
yes crossing my fingers that when I get out of bed and peek out my window that there will be snow on the ground. Had a little bit of over excitement with my roommates last night (or me freaking out and them laughing at me......) that CHRISTMAS is almost here.*and it ended with us playing a game that made us all look like we were drunk. pretty dang funny. Thanks Bekah for the funny games that you learn how to play when you go backpacking.

This past weekend my mom came up to visit me. It was a great time, we laughed. ALOT. especially Make it or break it. I almost peed my pants in Cosco. Pretty darn funny.

                                                off to make food. hope life is fantastic.


* I think its safe to say that I love Christmas. I love the Christmas music, the decorations, all of the stores that have Christmas sales, and last but not least Jesus. everything that comes with it. including egg-nog and a fire. Its the anticipation that leads up to it that i love.

Who will love me for me, not for what I have done, or what I will become.

ITS COLD OUT.

summer is gone.

You know what this means?

Christmas is close.

Eggnog lattes are almost here! (yay! yay! yay!)

Christmas music is going to start playing.

and SNOW IS GOING TO HAPPEN.

I can wear scarves, and gloves, and warm jackets.

sit out side,

 drink lots of hot tea, 

read books,

 and just admire the pretty snow. 

sit next to my space heater when things get a little too cold, then do it all again.

Today was the first day that I could wear a scarf. It was FANTASTIC. 

If you can't tell I LOVE THE WINTER. It is my favorite. 

I get GIDDY( definition: lightheartedly silly or joyfully elated )when I wake up and its over cast out, and its cold. I wanna do a little dance& Sometimes I do.

I really want an eggnog latte. super bad. or just eggnog. 

I feel like this song kinda says where I am in m life right now. http://www.jjheller.com/home.asp

Fall is in the air...

As Kaley(my roomate) and I were driving around the neighborhood looking for furniture
(yes we drive around neighborhoods looking for cast-out furniture. we are in college...come on. and really you can find some pretty sweet stuff.)  


We stumbled upon this telephone pole that was wrapped in beautiful leaves that just scream fall. its starting to get cold in the mornings. and I become giddy when I wake up and its chilly out, and overcast. oh my...my favorite.